4 Months Ago

I started to have a problem with my Boss. She was the one that brought me in yet we can not get along. Let me list down why.

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1. She prefers me to join her for breakfast and lunch. I am not the type that do that ever. I do not hang out with my Boss, since my first proper job in Big c. I told her that but her excuse was, would be the time she will talk about work. I joined her for few times and 90% of the time spent talking about her or her activities and about other people in the office.

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2. This is big really. I found about her wrong doing. I loose respect of her. The worst was that even I escalated to her Boss, he did nothing. I knew it's a big issue and should have looked into but they decided not to. What integrity? I questioned and asked her for next move, which was suggested by one of higher management, she said NO. Why she was able to do that? Because that person is no longer with us. He has retired. Damn!

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3. From there on, I think she realized that I will not be on her side no matter what. I say what is right and say no when I have to. She does not like that. She wants me to listen and do what she ask me to do. Damn! She would have said to herself that she made a mistake in hiring me. Just by looking at my FB profile and few encounters when I was in Big C, she thought I would the type of person who just follow what Boss says. She is wrong. 

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4. Fake. I can tell from her stories and actions, she is not a nice person. She pretends to be nice. She tells stories to impress people, telling people how she would choose to travel using Business Class, how wonderful she is as daughter in law, how particular she in when it comes to cooking and how good she is in cooking oh hell and more and more .... Only insecure type of people do that. 

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5. If all of us wants to walk straight for our destination, no, she doesn't like that. If things can be done as simple as ABC, she would prefer to do it LGZBWNO! If you were to ask me how many times we discussed on our scorecard and initiative etc, I would tell you, I lost count! She kept changing her mind and every time there is change of direction from her, she would call for a meeting. I spend 70% of my time attending meetings. The first few minutes of the meeting, we would spend talking about nonsense i.e. like how she had managed to survive all of the diseases. If we were to tell her, we had slip disc, she would have experienced that. Nothing in this world that she never experience. You know why? Because all her answer is YES I KNOW!

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I was told by my Boss that she would not confirm me after 6 months. She said I am not performing. Can you all believe that? I have been with few Bigs and they are really Big and almost all of my time either I am an average performer or even performer! Last job I was in. My Boss was an Indian. You know how fussy they can be, Indian from India? But my performance was better than my colleagues, who were mostly expatriates! What was that then? 

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But I realized too why in her opinion I am lacking. I totally blame it on the so many meetings I had to attend. I didn't have time to look after my team and now that we are all working from home, IT IS proven that I am managing my team well because of less meetings! If I were to attend meetings 5 times a day before MCO, I now attend only 2 meetings on average. And mostly do not involve her! I am on top of everything too. I know what is going on and I learn lots from my team members. I am more in control and she even complimented me on that! I think she had no choice to do that because I suspect her Boss would have complimented her as well. I am managing the most crucial task in the department and even with high volume and we all working from home (it is not an excuse anymore from now on), we are doing well with minimal error! 

I typed too long! I don't care to check my spelling or what not :) Sebab malas :) 

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FYI, I started engaging with 2 companies. I want to leave this company. I admit I have great managers and team members under my wing, but I just can't be working for someone that I loose respect to. My sister is against it but I just can't gamble that she would confirm me. If she doesn't confirm me after 9 months, as per agreement, I have to leave. And knowing her (Point number 4 above) she can do anything under her capacity to get rid of me. 

Oh well, let'st pray for the best

Love,

SL