And You Are Not Being Fair




Finished off the season 5 of Locked Up and it hit me hard. 
The relationship between Zulema and Maca somehow or rather made me felt empty, especially towards the end of the series. Gosh! 

I had experienced the anxiety attack once and it was really bad. I could not even sleep. And I do not wish to go through that again. It was really bad. As you all know I am not really a 'thinker' but that night I thought lots of things. Death, work, relationship. It happened few years back when I was not in a relationship. When I was in my old place. I did what I could do, pray, baca Quran and even tried to masturbate but did not work. I think I could only sleep at 5 wish am. Seriously, it was once in a life time miserable experience.

When I was done with Locked Up yesterday,  I almost felt the same thing. Quickly I asked for my help from my sister. And I asked my friend Ak to come to my house. He did and I felt much better. Sometimes I feel lucky that I have friends that I can call and come to rescue me. At anytime at all. 

I think I should start my morning walk tomorrow. I should also finish my painting. 

Now I am waiting for a friend to pick me up. We are off for The Curve to get her stuff for painting which I introduced that to her. 

Hope your Saturday was way much better than mine!

Love,
SL 

Give your Aquarius man space when he needs it. You will know when this is important to him when he becomes emotionally distant. Let him do his thing and get it out of his system. He’ll love you even more when this happens


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