Show Me Love




Please take a deep breath before you continue reading this entry. It may shock some of you or may be not. I do not know. But whatever it is, please read with open mind. 

I met up with Taqiuddin. That was our 3rd meeting on Friday afternoon. We had weed together. We did stupid things and now I do not know how to manage my feelings and of what had happened. I had to tell people closed to me. So I shared with Abdul, Leha and Norman. Oh I told Naimah about the weed part and she called me immediately. She nagged and nagged so I did not tell her the whole story! My ears were bleeding and I did not want to loose my ears completely! 

Anyway, nothing to be proud of what I did to be honest. Like I tweeted earlier, I can be a doofus sometimes. I was feeling lost and empty so decided to overnight at Leha's. I am very fortunate to have her in my life and she would be able to be there for me - almost at all times. Hugs hugs (If you are reading this, I love you dearly and you know that)

In all honesty, I like hanging out with Taqiuddin. He is fun to be with. He is cheeky and smart. Gosh! I just do not know what to do. But what I did was, I archived his chat so I know I will not be sending him any messages. But at the same time I wish that he will send me messages. Damn! 

That's all for now. I don't feel good about myself. 

Love,
SL

On a separate note, I almost forgotten Esmail's name. My sister mentioned his name in our call earlier in the evening and I was asking her back - is Esmail his name? Hahaha! And Esmail was the one I had a crush on few weeks ago? I am out of my mind! LOL 

Comments

  1. Maz5 October 2020 at 01:44

    SL real perasaan skrang apan
    rasa apa sbnrnya...
    Sedih ..regret...angry...?
    Taje a deep breath.. Mau kene pi holiday jugak la SL kot no...

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    1. SL5 October 2020 at 22:30

      Semua nya ada .... tu lah tapi nak pi macam mana dengan Covid rate dok naik niehhh 😔

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  2. cacah6 October 2020 at 10:40

    Adeh! Banyaknya I miss! Take care sis!

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    1. SL8 October 2020 at 23:53

      Hah ah macam macam cacah .... Thanks! And you too 😍

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